Firstly, thank you for all the posts and strong advice. They have been heeded.
So, since I first wrote this post, I saw her a couple of times, the messages continued, I watched myself and decided to cut her out cold turkey. The messages continue and I am responding, she hasn't asked when I will see her again as it has just been about one week or so and my frequency with her was weekly or sometimes less frequently if I travel for work. I WILL NOT SEE HER AGAIN AND WILL NOT RETURN TO THE SHOP! It is a shame as it is one of the good shops but I have not found the world of MLs.
For about one week and a half I have been going to the one shop and have seen 3 girls, including one last night. I am not going to get into the merits/not of MLs vs WLs, I am just enjoying the ride. The 3 girsl I saw were great and 2 gave me CBJ and 1 BBBJ. All girl were gorgeous and last night was the best. The desensitizing is working.
I am planning on going to a FS shop but my plan is to go with the mindset to fuck the girl really hard and then walk away limping. Not to mistreat or abuse them, but get the service that I am paying for which in this case will be PSE as hard as I can get.
Her messages do something to me and I have to cut that out as well. Just trying to do the right thing by her, having said that I read other posts of girls having 2 or 3 boyfriends and all the shit that goes on so I am starting to think that I should cut off the messages cold turkey as well as it will speed up my recovery.
I will fuck the girls in every way I can until my dick can't take it anymore, then I will go back for more.
Thank you all!