I agree with Raybo mr BerasAsing. Mate, if you're struggling atm with stuff don't hesitate to get some help. Your GP can recommend a good psych and just the act of talking to someone can help. I've read many of your posts; you're a thoughtful well-intentioned bloke. I once spent some time at a health farm after a brutal period in life. I had to sneak out for bacon and eggs instead of carrot smoothies for breakfast but apart from that it was brilliant. Time out or conversation can really help. Do it.