Originally Posted by
begov94
My first one was a girl next door with great body, the rest were lookers including my recent regular. What I saw in them were normal girls who wanted a bf, possibly marriage (except for the second, I had 4 in total including the current one) and they were all the same nationality. I guess I like the mannerism of these girls due to their national background, as it is something I've always been able to click with.
But for each individuals they have their differences. What caused me to breakup with the first three is their dwindling effort in trying to keep the relationship strong. With the current one I saw something totally different - as soon as I was about to give up from being rejected twice, she sat right next to me, hugged me, kissed me and proposed to be FWBs. None of my earlier ML/WL exes would do the same. The thing I saw in her is her ability to work with a person's inner child, and I'm confident that if we do get married and have kids she will be able to comfort our kids the same way if I'm not around to do the comforting. That's why I kept on suggesting to her that we should get married, although I didn't want to pressure her into it.
On top of that, sexual satisfaction was consistent unlike the first three although that wasn't my priority in pursuing the idea of marriage. And her bantering plus sharing of her private life stories also strengthened my interest in marrying her. If we do get married, this will be the first time in my life marrying the woman I truly love rather than marrying for convenience like in my past marriage.
In the other three I guess sex appeal and youthful looks was why I became their regular but when it comes to the dating it was because they expressed wanting more than just customer relations. I was open to the idea of dating ML/WL only because I see them as human beings not live sex toys.