flameaway
31-08-2013, 01:17 PM
Hello Guys and Girls.
I frequently read the forums for general advice and the mood around the place. I have to say it has been quiet and i know why.
I have many stories that i would love to publish and to explain different situations and outcomes, but i simply do not feel as anonymous as the internet once was. I just don't feel comfortable anymore. I am alone in feeling this?
Its not as private and as exclusive as it once was. I have had many many good punts over the last 2 years and some absolute shockers.....
Now on to my story.......
I hate punting.... Its like renting a home.. our just throwing money away while the girls you see get better and better cars and homes. They all have quotas of how much they want before they exist the system and get educations, because i know it sounds really easy money, but once you get to know a girl and they let there wall down they tell you stories that make some people squirm.
I have the up most respect for girls that work in the industry, yes some do it because they can and because they have a gift of looks, but the majority of them do it for family reasons, and the quick easy money.
I left a business the other day and as i was leaving, ( with no dis respect intended ) a Gentleman about the age of 60 - 70 walked in.... i was like.. I am not going to be that guy at that age. I mean, i might be, but honestly i cannot see myself at that age going for some fun.
I want to be married and have kids you know? I really do. I have not had an easy life, i have always struggled in my life in many respects. I have hindered myself and am not in a good situation, which is my fault, i take responsibility for that.
Now i do have a real life partner, that i have been with for say 6 - 7 years. We stopped the Fun Activity's about 2 years ago. I initiated the pause.
She stopped trying about 3 years ago. Stopped changing her hair, the way she dressed, her attitude. Its really frustrating, i am with her because of emotional ties, that's it. There is nothing physical at all left. We may touch a few times a week, but that is about it. I am still rather young, i jog, run look after myself. Eat healthy. I want to look good because of the future i want.
I have tried getting her to jog and to buy new shoes and clothes, but its not working. I am stuck in a rut. Like when we go Sunnybank ( Which i am trying to avoid these days ) i see all these amazing chicks dressed Nicely, and i suggest why don't you try something like that, or when i see a beautiful hairstyle, i go that looks amazing. Subtle hints are dropped all the time from me when i see something nice, but its like talking to a brick wall.
We do the same things in day in day out. I am only 30 and i feel like this is it. I spend so much money on punting, id rather put it towards a car or some new things but, you know its hard not to have that feeling of connection.
I work next to a massage parlor ( Which shall remain Nameless ) and every morning i see the girls arrive and they are always amazingly beautifully presented and i just want to put the sign up and head next door every morning, because that little voice inside my head wants to be happy. But i will never go this parlor, because it would just be weird to go in and see them every day, so i am only going to go there when i get a new job, because they are hot.
I did meet someone in the industry who i became really close with. She wanted me to move in with her, but i had to explain that i could not. I am devastated by that, because i really did Love her, over the period of the year that we saw each other.
So can you relate? Or am i the only one who is in a messy situation?
I frequently read the forums for general advice and the mood around the place. I have to say it has been quiet and i know why.
I have many stories that i would love to publish and to explain different situations and outcomes, but i simply do not feel as anonymous as the internet once was. I just don't feel comfortable anymore. I am alone in feeling this?
Its not as private and as exclusive as it once was. I have had many many good punts over the last 2 years and some absolute shockers.....
Now on to my story.......
I hate punting.... Its like renting a home.. our just throwing money away while the girls you see get better and better cars and homes. They all have quotas of how much they want before they exist the system and get educations, because i know it sounds really easy money, but once you get to know a girl and they let there wall down they tell you stories that make some people squirm.
I have the up most respect for girls that work in the industry, yes some do it because they can and because they have a gift of looks, but the majority of them do it for family reasons, and the quick easy money.
I left a business the other day and as i was leaving, ( with no dis respect intended ) a Gentleman about the age of 60 - 70 walked in.... i was like.. I am not going to be that guy at that age. I mean, i might be, but honestly i cannot see myself at that age going for some fun.
I want to be married and have kids you know? I really do. I have not had an easy life, i have always struggled in my life in many respects. I have hindered myself and am not in a good situation, which is my fault, i take responsibility for that.
Now i do have a real life partner, that i have been with for say 6 - 7 years. We stopped the Fun Activity's about 2 years ago. I initiated the pause.
She stopped trying about 3 years ago. Stopped changing her hair, the way she dressed, her attitude. Its really frustrating, i am with her because of emotional ties, that's it. There is nothing physical at all left. We may touch a few times a week, but that is about it. I am still rather young, i jog, run look after myself. Eat healthy. I want to look good because of the future i want.
I have tried getting her to jog and to buy new shoes and clothes, but its not working. I am stuck in a rut. Like when we go Sunnybank ( Which i am trying to avoid these days ) i see all these amazing chicks dressed Nicely, and i suggest why don't you try something like that, or when i see a beautiful hairstyle, i go that looks amazing. Subtle hints are dropped all the time from me when i see something nice, but its like talking to a brick wall.
We do the same things in day in day out. I am only 30 and i feel like this is it. I spend so much money on punting, id rather put it towards a car or some new things but, you know its hard not to have that feeling of connection.
I work next to a massage parlor ( Which shall remain Nameless ) and every morning i see the girls arrive and they are always amazingly beautifully presented and i just want to put the sign up and head next door every morning, because that little voice inside my head wants to be happy. But i will never go this parlor, because it would just be weird to go in and see them every day, so i am only going to go there when i get a new job, because they are hot.
I did meet someone in the industry who i became really close with. She wanted me to move in with her, but i had to explain that i could not. I am devastated by that, because i really did Love her, over the period of the year that we saw each other.
So can you relate? Or am i the only one who is in a messy situation?