Just paid for services for the first time in my life last night

38 years old. Out of a divorce after 15 year marriage though haven't had sex for over 2 years now

First went to a massage place 161 chatswood. Paid for the hour. There was almost zero teasing or buildup. After half an hour just asks me to flip and starts giving me a HJ. She was cute but I couldn't get across the line. Eventually she gives up and I was a bit over it. Massage was decent but I was hoping there'd be more teasing or getting close to me etc to build the anticipation etc.

Ended up going home having another shower then was still horny so went to 78a Artarmon brothel. Girl was cute, gave me bbbj which was great but then she eventually lied down wanted me to fk her but I ended up going soft fairly quickly even in different positions. Couldn't get close to the finish line. Ended up her just giving me a massage till the time was up

So all up spent like 300 and basically got 2 massages out of it. Not the girls fault. Just an epic fail cause once it started happening again at 78a Artarmon and me realising I wasn't going to cum I ended up just getting in my own head and it wasn't really enjoyable at all

So frustrating as when I was married I'd often be a 1 minute man, not all the time. But other times if I'd been wanking too much I couldn't come during sex either. Now it's been over 2 years of me solely wanking and I guess the sensations just aren't the same.

Epic fail. Now I hope after all that I don't pick up some disease to really top it off


Anyway. Needed to get this off my chest. Hope others sessions were more successful

Maybe I'll hold off wanking for the next week and try again on Friday night at the Chatswood 161