is hard you know? very hard. I think I can just walk away start new life but no. Eight years I spend in this life since 20 years old. Now I'm 28 what I have? nothing. just memories regrets.

I try quit once marry rich guy think he make me happy but no he no understand me. we divorce after one year.

now I alone struggling. no more designer bag no more fancy trip. just me four wall thinking what could be.

I miss excitement rush feeling wanted. but most I miss money. hard to live paycheck to paycheck when you used to get whatever you want.

sometime I wish go back do different. but life no work that way. only I can do now try move forward one day one day.

you know I grateful for experience lessons. but sometime quiet moment I wonder... all this worth?