I can probably relate as I've been in a shorter but much more turbulent relationship with an engaged woman (which I wasn't aware of until near the end). She was quite unstable too, but love is blind and all the red flags that you never realised before goes out the window so to speak. It was a mills&bons romance, she was pregnant with my baby but she didn't want it so she had an abortion. Me being anti-abortion didn't take it very well. Fair to say I was in shock and has depression & anxiety attacks, it got even worse when I found out the truth of her fiancée in France.
I had a dream about the birth of my son in the hospital maybe in an alternate reality of the Marvel Universe.
It's been 10 months since I last saw her and besides going to brothels I haven't being wanting to get intimate with anyone in my real life until recently where I met a girl who looks like a model but is a country girl at heart. Still getting to know her.
Life has its ups and downs but it does get better. Like Ronan Keating sings "Life is a rollercoaster just gotta ride it!". You should think of yourself lucky that you've dodged a bullet in such an unstable and crazy person.
If you're interested in my original article just copy and paste
http://forum.aus99.com/showthread.ph...g-a-single-mum
All the best!