Alright, so I have been contemplating if I should write this or not for the past 3 days, but fuck it. I feel like this is actually a pretty cool community that I can share stuff with.

To give some background, I'm not a 20 year old newbie to punting. Been doing this for over a decade. I'm average built and average looking. So while girls don't flock to me like they would to that French coach we saw on tv, I do get girls in the real world and they quite like me as a person. I have a good job that allows me to travel the world. My point is, I'm not inexperience or have low self-esteem.

However, I'm Fucked, because I think I start to like this WL a little too much. To a point where I kind of want to ask her out. I know it's dumb and we should have boundaries and in all my years of punting, this has pretty much never happened. Some WLs would ask for my contact and I almost always say no. But this one, this one I want to ask her instead.

Now I don't want anything serious because I am leaving in less than 2 weeks and I probably won't come back until next year, but it would still be nice if anything can happen and it doesn't even have to be sex. One might say, well that's dumb because you are already having sex with her. But as a seasoned punter, sex is already not the ultimate thing that we value because it comes so easily. I'm sure some of you can relate to this. And as stupid as it sounds, the hunt for emotions might be more fun after the sex. It's like I don't care that I had sex with her, but I want her to want to have sex with me. haha. God I sound like a woman on that one, lol. It's hunt that makes it fun and the problem is I just usually don't do that with WLs.

I have this weird thing where when I'm hyper focused on something, I can't even help to stop it. With work, it's a great thing to have, I can sit there work days on end until complete it. But with girls, I would start to think about how I can ask them out or where to go or how to fuck them. With girls, not a great to have because I can't focus on anything else.

I've only been here for 2 weeks. I saw her twice and I actually haven't punted since I last saw her. She actually only works about 1-2 days a week, so I'm seeing her on Thursday for a 2 hour session. And that's the reason why I booked a 2 hour session, or else I would never have done it haha. The funny thing is, during our last session, I jokingly said 1 hr is too short with you, can I book 2 hrs. Her response was you can book how ever long you like, you can actually book the whole day and we can watch tv. haha, it's actually kinda cute.

So yea. Now y'all can comment, judge, and laugh at me. That's all fine by me, because I'm sooo fucked already haha. At least this way, I don't have to internalize everything in my head.