I know what u mean about confidence!!
I had very very low self esteem due to life circumstances at one point - I wasn't really aware of it at that time!!
Now I know the difference and I do not suffer from that.
I think in my pursuit for girls - was partly the person I am, I always wanted to have sex with as many girls as I could, and was tied into how I saw myself - my self image and esteem.
What ever the case may be, I know what I want and am confident enough to pursue it.
That is:
Getting my career
Enjoy my life
Punting as much as I can
--------
In my low self esteem stage, I wouldn't dare admit that:
I was a virgin at 32
I loved playing computer games
I enjoy studying
I like working
I enjoy cooking
Wouldn't tell bitched to fk off even if they were being cunts
Lols
So I do feel I have come a long way - thanks to punting hahaha