Hi Christmas
It must have been so hard when first working walking though a door and knowing a stranger behind the door (maybe old and ugly is going to fuck you)
How did you cope? Did you play a role and pretend you were someone else ?
Also do you ever have anal sex and how do you feel about that?
That would give you another option now your not using you mouth.
Ask you all the questions as your the only one that answers.
But of cause it's optional
Cheers