Quote Originally Posted by manjuice333 View Post
Hi All,

First, sorry that I have not posted many reviews, hopefully the reasons for that will become clear. I just have to get this off my chest, somehow, if it is at all possible.

I’ve been secretly punting for years. Secretly, because I’m married with 3 young kids.

Anyway, I’ve had it all, hot, not-so-hot, high end, low end blah blah... This has been going on for eleven years I must have been with easily over 70 women, maybe more than 100 lost count. It was an addiction I had developed, one I wanted to be rid of.

In all this time I have not developed feelings for any of them even though with some I had good chemistry and very much enjoyed them. I thought I was immune to catching feelings, until recently.

I met this young Japanese ML and only saw her twice but I was smitten hard, like seriously considering the option of leaving my poor family. I do stress the words ‘considering’ and ‘option’. I found myself missing and yearning to see her. Feelings I have not felt in Probably 15 years.

I was going to see her today and planning on getting her contact details, which I believe I would have been successful in doing as I could tell she really liked me too. I was planning this for fear that the shop would be closed down and she’d return to Japan. Well they were open till just now and I had a bad feeling which was confirmed when they told me they’re closing indefinitely. I will probably never see her again, which is good for my marriage, I suppose lol

My heart has been rent asunder. I wandered the streets near the shop vainly hoping that our paths might cross but it was not to be.

Just as I thought I was beyond romantic feelings, I also thought I was beyond romantic heartbreak, but I can now feel its painful sting, rather acutely.

I really don’t think I can ever punt again, which is a good thing I suppose.
I feel your pain, but it's all part of being "in lust". That longing feeling is something to be treasured because you rarely would find someone worth longing for! Enjoy it!
I have to say, though, having a relationship with a WL/ML is a real mind-bender. I mean, in a normal courtship, you go through increasing levels of intimacy, all along getting to know all the things you may or may not like about each other. On this normal journey, you can always see something you really dislike about someone before getting a "home run", and call it quits right there.
In some relationships, you get through all the shitty things you don't like, and there might be a lot of it, but get to the sex part and it turns out to be mind-blowingly good, so it continues. The greatness of the sex out-weighs everything else.
In a WL/ML relationship, however, it's upside down. Both sides start from maximum intimacy. Maybe the sex was great. Maybe the lead up during the sesh was great because you're 2 sexy naked bodies talking to each other. In this situation, pussy and cock rule over brains. Even the WL/ML's own judgement is farked. So you start a relationship from there....
Then you both start to see all the shit you don't like or absolutely hate about each other. It's always downhill from there because you started from the peak!