When a regular suddenly stopped working you wonder if you should wait for her or give up.

Long time ago I had a really good regular who suddenly disappeared from roster and reappeared one year later. She did mention travelling around the world before disappearing first time. Didn't mind it as I wasn't attached to her but when she reappear and totally remembers me and what moves I liked after that whole year disappearing, I wonder if she was waiting for me to pop the serious question... Didn't get the chance as she disappeared again and never returned.

Then I had another regular from last year. Gave me BBFS for free since our first session, told me she's going to the US for a month before coming back, saw her again as she came back then suddenly disappeared again. I also wondered if she was waiting for me to pop a serious question.

This year met a really nice girl, we became FWBs and had really great sex each time. Thinking of previous experiences I thought maybe I should pop the question early. She rejected but insisted on maintaining FWB relationship. Now she's disappeared for months without any indication of returning. I'm thinking of giving up looking for her and hopefully she reappears months or a year later.

At the moment not really sure which girl to choose from when punting. Tried a few 2 months ago, every single one of them suggesting that I should see them regularly for some reason. Feels heavy to comply with their suggestions as the sex isn't as great as with my last FWB and I don't really want to recycle experiences of girls going out of their norm showing me good times then suddenly disappearing.