Originally Posted by
Jenny.K
Someone told me about the woman and I watched the show today.
I guess she was attacked one month earlier than me but her face looks a lot better than mine.
I'm really happy for her but same time I can't stop comparing with her and myself many things.
There are some ppl who try to encourage me but the other hand, some ppl told me I deserve it and good to happened to me because I was WL. Even I didn't do anything wrong. Ppl told me directly or convey me this. When I heard that, I was shattered. I've survived from fatal attack but I'm not sure I can survive amongst those ppl. When I do operations, I catch taxi myself to go to hospital. When I wake up from anaesthetic, no one next to me. I'm getting worse and worse mentally but no one understand me. I don't blame friends or whoever. I understand that ppl ain't understand me. But feeling being alone and isolated is really really hard for me to keep stay strong. I like to talk here coz I don't have to be scared to ppl find out about me and always encourage me and no one say something bad. I'm not looking for ppl's sympathy but I'd like to know there are still some ppl who worry about me. It might sounds childish but it helps me a lot.
I have so many things to whine but don't wanna make you feel bored so I'm gonna stop to whine.
My tears come out while write this but actually I feel a bit better...
Thx, guys who come here and cheer me up & not here but still worry about me..
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