My two cents.

A transaction is a transaction.
I am recently fucked in the head also. But it's sorta opposite. I insist on sugar-ing, but she has left me due to me always giving money whenever she meets me. And her not wanting to be a third wheel to a marriage.

It's sad, but I don't feel seeing a girl without paying her is unfair.

As sad as it is, my heads fully fucked now thinking of her.