Thanks bros for the advice, i sort of know i need to get over her. At this point i'm still in deep shit but. Im going to see her out next friday - as friend, i shouldn't but i still not able to resist.

Still not in the mood but i started to look around the rosters and see if theres anything interesting..

As for my wife, i feel theres nothing i can do more, we sort of still stay together but there is no respecr or feeling anymore between us.