It is not death as you inevitably won’t know. But it is the journey to get there. We are all on a journey and as someone mentioned above you won’t know when you blow your last load. The punter journey really is about not having negative sentiments about your life along the lines “I wish I had” rather than in the process of dying reflect about those sessions with the ladies and “been there done that”. If your orientation is sexual in nature and your punts have accordingly been good in nature your memories until you
can’t remember will in themselves have a sublime lining that your very being will relish and cherish. Just get on with life and make sure you complete your puzzle as no one else lives your life and therefore can’t do it for you.